Sunday, January 25, 2009
1:40 AM
weiting made a wordpress.just cause.
http://growingstage.wordpress.com/
Growing?
1:05 AM
Growing up is painful.You’re on the cusp of finding yourself.
But the world is that huge, and you have no idea where to start looking.
Sometimes you lose yourself, in the bid to be someone else.
And sometimes you find bits of who you are, in the people around you.
Everyone grows up wanting to be like someone.
It could be people you know: your parents, friends, siblings.
Could be people you admire: celebrities, idols.
But on the way to finding ourselves, we try to be somebody we’re not.
We try to fit in, try to blend, try to hide.
We can’t do anything different because we’re afraid of being an outcast.
We don’t try anything new because we’re afraid of being alone.
But what we don’t realize is that, we need to be ourselves.
Because living a life that’s not you, it’s hard.
I used to always want to be someone else. I still do, you know. I wish I was tall, thin, beautiful and talented.
I’m willing to exchange my privacy for fame; slave through hours of training to perform on stage.
But every jewel must come from some sort of precious stone.
If you’re just a rock, no matter how much you grind and polish, you’ll still just be a rock.
I’ve told myself that I’ve come to terms with being who I am, but I can tell you honestly, I haven’t.
It might take me forever to realize that my dreams are too far-fetched.
I thought about it the other day, and finally realized, that I had no idea what I want to do in the future.
That thought scares me.
Because all of a sudden, all the dreams and hopes I had been holding on to, just didn’t seem to be real.
Like the clouds I had been clinging on to just disappeared and I’m just free-falling back to Earth.
I feel lost.
I still have a long way to go.
A lot more to grow.
That’s what life’s about right? Growing?
Well then, I’m scared of life.
I’m scared because I don’t know in which direction I’m growing.
I should start a wordpress.
the letter meme... youyou
Sunday, December 14, 2008
4:34 PM
Cause Sheryl told me so:RULES: Do the “Letter MEME”. Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the “How-to” Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry. How you do the Letter Meme: Dear (the last person who sent you a message): I don’t really know how to tell you this, but __1__. I think I realized it __2__ __3__ and I saw you __4__ __5__. I’m sure you’re __6__ enough to understand __7__. I’m returning __8__ to you, but I’ll keep __9__ as a memory. You should also know that I __10__ __11__. __12__, -Your name-
1. What’s the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’ll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn’t match
Grey - You’re a pervert
Yellow - I’m selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You’re a loser
Other - I’m in love with your sister
2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes
3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton Fish- In women’s clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife
4. What’s the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out
5. What’s your favourite colour?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United’s goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - me
6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed
7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I’ve felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn’t exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we’re cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-eastWorried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I’m allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I’m open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover
8. What’s the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service
9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David’s tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college
10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked
11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water - Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics
12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - F*** off now
France - In Pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family
[After doing the quiz...]
Dear Sheryl: I don’t really know how to tell you this, but I’ll join the monastery. I think I realized it when I changed tennis shoes under the bus and I saw you sit on Donald Duck. I’m sure you’re cowardly enough to understand that Santa doesn’t exist. I’m returning your memories from the military service to you, but I’ll keep David’s tricot outfits as a memory. You should also know that I told in my confession today about a new life as a clone. Go burn, Weiting
With the utmost love.
I have no one to tag. So it'll just end here.
And whatever curses are linked to this meme will hail upon me. Wtv. v___v
puh-caw!
Thursday, November 13, 2008
11:35 PM
Ignore the title, dudes, ignore. the. title.Okay, SP's having some really funky open house thingys in the recent few weeks.
There's FACEOFF@TheMediaClub which we'll probably be helping out on the day itself.
And FOR face off, we've been going around to random malls
Then there's this parents forum thing on Saturday in which I have to guide parents around the school (kinda), to like... 5 stations. I'm like WTF, I totally work better with students. Parent? Nuh uh. D:
And random events are popping up in my life. Whoop-de-doo.
But on the bright side, they aren't BAD events, eh? @___@
I feel like writing. What happened to my skills and muse? *whispers* Have I ever had skills? O_O
polaroid, pls.
Monday, October 06, 2008
1:55 PM
i want polaroid film.DAMMIT for going extinct.
DDDD<
ROT IN HELL, POLAROIDS.
once in a blue moon
Friday, October 03, 2008
7:00 PM
How long has it been? Let's see... 23rd Feb to 3rd Oct... Some 7 months and 8 days?Somewhere around there.
Many things have happened, but none of them are exciting enough for me to pick up the enthusiasm to blog.
There was going back to AMKSS during Teachers Day and things like that.
Meeting up with old friends.
There was Beatrice's return to Singapore. Although short, but rather fruitful, I would say.
There was exams and then seeing my results. 3.288 GPA Nothing I'd complain about but I definately could have done better.
There was class chalet; by far the only class chalet where I felt more at ease and happy to attend. (Of course there was a huge incentive called MAHJONG.)
Then there was two days straight playing of Mahjong at Kathleen's house.
It was really fun and it got me addicted to Mahjong all again.
But somehow life got all lethargic again.
I don't feel like doing anything anymore.
I don't know why, but the emo bout came back for a little when I reread my old blog posts.
But it took me no more than 4 blog posts to realize how childish I was back then.
Kaili said "you WERE a teenager."
And I said "I still am."
It's true.
Well, all that's over.
I got a little frustrated when I was talking to Kathleen on MSN some two days back and I think my tone got a little too unreasonable.
Sometimes I find it hard to get along with other people.
And I know it's my personality getting in the way again.
Sometimes I feel like I do all the talking.
And I know it's about time to shut my mouth.
Time to change right? I said this 3 years ago.
Sorry Kathleen. I don't wish to ruin your birthday.
I want to celebrate Yijing's as well.
I want to celebrate everyone's birthday.
Just like you guys celebrated mine last year.
Cause birthday's are important to people. Or at least, to me.
My update's getting too long again.
I don't know if I'll update again. This may not become a habit.
I'll change my blog address soon if it does.
It comes like a fist on the side of your cheek. suddenly.
Saturday, February 23, 2008
3:46 AM
So... postings have been out for a full... hmm.... 4 5 days? I got into SP.. or so the people who actually read my blog already know..
Diploma in Media and Communications.
Which was my first choice. Hallelujah.
As far as I know.. I have schoolmates! (well duh i have schoolmates.. but you know what i mean. schoolmates that used to be my schoolmates too.)
Zaki (who's going... mechanical engineering, was it?)
Yuanting (Biotechnology)
Kimberlyn (same course as me. ^^)
Ben Wong? Joyce? Jeslin?
Even though I dont' really know who's jeslin... ><
at least there's a number of AMKsians going there. Plus, I won't be alone. *shrug*
I guess that's cool.
There's an orientation week from the 7th to 11th before school starts on the 14th..
Perhaps that'll be fun?
But from now till then i have over a month to do nothing.
Maybe i should consider that job sushan was talking about.
We're all kinda scattered all over the place now..
Let's not talk about 10 years down the road.
Hardly even 5 years down the road.
Let's just say... 6 months down the road... will we still keep in contact with out secondary school friends?
Will i still talk to people like weilun, cand, taihuat, maurice, yainkyaw, xiangyun, rosalind, rueychyi, chmel, saykiong, lim, xinyu, xueyi, xuelong... the rest of 4.1...
There comes a time to emo.
Once it finally hits me that I may never see these people again.
Sadness.
Illusion?
laughs
Thursday, January 31, 2008
9:10 PM
Yeah, so i was going through my stuff, since i've had a new cabinet for like 2 weeks now. and i found a stack of used exam paper. meaning those paper we're given to write on, the kind we'd smuggle home after the exam.in other words, exam foolscape.
and i saw that i was... scribbling to myself.
yes i do that alot. i have alot of time during exams. =.=
the conversation was as follows. with my horrible, ugly, scribbly handwriting.
"hopefully i'll do well"
"hopefully i'll do well"
"hopefully i'll do well"
"you've invented your own cursive"
"congrats =]"
"it's not really cursive words if the words don't all stick together, right?"
"this is just cause you're too lazy to lift your pen. it's not cursive."
"yeah, well i like it."
"so what, it's still not cursive."
"whatever. you're still writing this way."
"it's your hand."
"you're brain." (with the ugly handwriting, the r looked like an l)
"blain? haha. you stupid person. blain."
"BRAIN. idiot. i'm getting teased by myself. wow. how nice."
"r i g h t."
"haha. not cursive."
"its not cursive!!!"
"it's squiggly writing."
"IDIOT."
"you're wasting your ink."
"it's not ink, it's friggin pencil led."
"fine whatever."
"you are damn lame."
"yes i know, don't need to repeat it."
"funny aint it. (sarcasm)"
yes. i am weird.
OH and. there's something i MUST say. the other day, my mom and me were talking about how people in the past liked to combine their names into their child's names. so for example, ann + eric = annric or something stupid like that.
so we were drawing examples, and cause sheryl was the only one who i knew her mum and dad's names, i used her as an example.
i present, sheryl's would-be name. "frankephine." i spent a full 10 minutes laughing at that.
it made me tear.
frankephine. pwahahaha.
PS. my bro said it sounds like frankenstein's wife. >///<
K-LOVE
notsoSUNNILY and one of these days when i go berserk,
you better hope that i don't have a knife with me.